When I look back at who I was 6 years ago, I see a beautiful, confident young woman who had so many opportunities. Over the last 6 years, I have gotten too comfortable in my bad eating habits and lack of exercise. I have become lazy and have not taken care of myself the way I should. I have let it effect my relationship with my husband and with myself. Sometimes I feel like such an old lady. The extra 40 pounds that I have packed on have left me tired and have made it more difficult to enjoy my 2 year old daughter. I want to be healthy for my family and if I continue my bad habits into the future. I will only continue to be more unhappy and not be able enjoy the life I have been so very blessed to have.
My biggest problem is motivation and self control, I have tried so many different “diets” throughout the years, only to last a week and then go back to my old unhealthy ways. I just love food way too much.
Tomorrow night is my first weigh in with a group that I am joining called East County’s Greatest Loser Weight Loss Challenge. Myself and a group of about 30 other people all with similar goals meet once a week with a husband and wife team of doctors who each week give us a lesson in nutrition. This 12 week program is also a competition. Being that I am a very competitive person and also have to answer to 30 strangers who are there to support me in my goals, I think this might be what I need to stay on track and be motivated. I realize that I have to make a change in lifestyle in order to keep it off for the long run, but I have never been more focused on this goal.
I plan on keeping all of my friends updated here on facebook by this blog as an additional motivation for me. If I have to answer to all of you too, I think the judgement of me failing might also help me to stay on track. We will see how it goes!